[心情日记] 这里是V的日记本

传说の哈迪斯

下个月的这个时候,我肯定坐在飞机上..
明年的这个时候,我或许会变成一个东北大小伙儿..
一百年后的这个时候,我没准儿还能眯着浑浊的双眸看最后一眼这个世界..

每次有人问我,最近在干啥?
我都是这么回答的,
"踢球啊,练肌肉啊,聚会啊,唱K啊,上网啊,玩游戏啊,差不多都是这个样子."
该走的都会走,想留的不一定能留..
我也搞不懂,现在我该让时间过快一点还是慢一点..
这个最后的最悠长的暑假,并没有过得跟想象中一样开心..
因为失败的阴影总是挥之不去..

"举头望不尽灰云",还好，我身边有你们这群或可爱或可靠的朋友给我光明..

只是我突然觉得我有点可怜武松.
为什么打了败仗却死不了?
为什么失去的只是一条手臂,不是整条生命?
输了就是输了,不要给我说什么"不幸中的万幸"..
项羽,我理解你..

至于我的那场战斗,
它已经结束了近两个月..
胜利的,举着敌人的首级被夹道欢迎..
而失败的,除了待在家里舔伤口没有其他权利..
在这场历经12年的战斗中我没有阵亡,
只是像武松一样失去一条手臂..
但这比阵亡更惨,比拥抱那像天鹅绒一样柔软的永眠更残酷..

于是我突然明白,
可怕的不是一次次的失败,因为有勇气的人会越挫越勇;
可怕的是,在某次失败过后已经没有战斗,一输就再也没有机会了;
更加可怕的是,
在最终的战斗的失败后那段无尽的虚无的时间中,
一次次地陷入悔恨的深渊,一次次地用"如果当时...那么现在..."的句型造句.
而每当我在痛苦的造句练习中醒悟过来,
我就会更加痛苦,无比希望能重获新生,让这无尽的空虚假期过得快一点..
我告诉自己,高中的V已经死去,大学的V即将诞生.
只有这样想,我才能从这悔恨的沼泽中抽身而出.

看着吧,4年后,V又是一条好汉!!

传说の哈迪斯

08.08.13  多云转晴

你说你过得很不开心..

说新学校的同学都好讨厌..

没有原来的同学可爱..

说数学好难...

那些发下来的总结性的4A纸都不知在说啥..

说叫我过去一起读啦,

看到我才开心得起来..

说只是看着我的照片也没有用,

照片不会说话不会安慰不会跟你玩游戏..


你说有个从ST转过去的人说话的感觉跟我好像,

跟他说话就像在跟我说但是还是想跟我说..


你可以的.. 一定可以的..  我们一定可以挨过这一年..

尽管一个在北回归线,一个在遥远的东北,

但我们的心一直在一起.

[ 本帖最后由 传说の哈迪斯 于 2007-8-13 11:34 编辑 ]

MOMO

要害了要害了

传说の哈迪斯

one day in chaoZHOU, upon the West-lake we failed to take a boat.

our first destination is Park West-lake. but far from our immagination, its West-lake is not as big as the one in Hangzhou. or i might say this "lake" is size of a quite big pool. anyway, water in it is quite clear. and we saw plants around the lake seemed so harmonious in such a Chinese slyle painting.

seeing lovely boats on the lake, we had to say goodbye to them. given more time, we could have spent a whole day playing here. maybe sailing with light rain in boats on the lake all day long will be a great enjoyment.


one day in chaoZHOU, we walked for a long time and an unimmaginable distance on many roads.  

here i wanna say sorry to all of you. it's my lack of information about trafic in chaoZHOU that made our journey tired. god knows how long have we walked that day. but thanks goodness. it's you that i walked together with. or such march would drive anyone of us mad. - -|||  and walking with laughter and deep communication that day proved a nice experience.

just as Li-Chan said, though not seeing more road-cleaners here than in St, we found circumstances here better than in St. it's a little bit embarrassing. but we have to respect what we saw. and people here were also friendly, mostly. some taxi drivers should be specially different example, i think.

one day in chaoZHOU, at times we missed our friends and for a moment our mood turned low.

Sumsum-Choi and Navigator-Lin were talking about disappearance of Ahs,
who's been concerned as a happy talent girl; Li-Chan felt it sorry and painful to accept the Ting-Gao's sudden absence. and of course, everybody took it as a great pity that part of our friends had to give up this one-day-long short-distance trip in chaoZHOU, for various reasons.  

one day in chaoZHOU, allow me to leave back some memories, some that never be shared and never go.

yeah, you may say i'm too lazy. haha ..

is there anyone wanna take up this unfinished travel note?

and not only on this day in Chaozhou, but during my whole final and longest summer holiday, i've been missin' you, my heart and my mind and my soul.

without you my world always appears a little bit grey.

lovin' you and missin' you.